It started for others, while my ass is playing catchup.
Its irritating though, how when you seem to begin to get accustomed to a new life,
things start to jump on you all at once.
I mean, maybe it really is just me, maybe its all in my own head.
All i know is, the stress is building.
Stress from being a lazy, procrastinating individual which put me in this situation.
The stress of my personal life getting complicated with people coming in and making things difficult.
Stress, fuck that six letter word, stress.
I dont think i can handle it all, i dont think im going to be able to bear with it.
I really dont know anything.
I dont know what to do, what to say, what to be, how to act.
I really dont know anything.
I mean, this really is a clean slate, everything back to one, back at the starting line.
I dont want to mess up, i dont wanna fall, i dont wanna be left behind.
Yet, why does it feel like i already have......i already have.
I just hope, just really really hope, that i everything i think will happen, is wrong.
I want everything to happen on its own, not what i think will happen.
Good luck to all who are out there, on their own, starting anew.
Good luck to all who are in the same boat, or probably struggling not to drown.
Good luck to me, ha......i really really need it.
I guess this really is that "New" Beginning.
